Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Open the Eyes to My Heart Lord, I want to see you!

Lord, I pray you will see my heart, know its deficiencies, and let the Holy Spirit work to open the eyes of my heart. I am so blessed in so many ways, but have cut myself off from the world's needs, only seeing my needs. Help me to be here now, realizing others' lives and happenings that have brought them challenges. Lord, I ignore my challenges or have chosen to sit idle ,and realize, as I sit idle, it is wrong not to ask You what Your will is. I have not opened my heart to You, of free will, to invite You into my life to do Your will. For that I am ashamed, but would like to now...it's never too late. Lord, I pray you will use me in a capacity that will further Your will and do what You need me to do. I love You. You are the Creator of my life and have given me all that I have (family, friends, emotions, ect.). I am eternally thankful Lord, and rely on You. All that I have is from You, and all that I give is only because You have given it to me first, despite my short comings in character. You have loved me first, and I wish my heart could have such unconditional love as You have shown me (as unworthy as I am) and the world (with all the faults I, myself, contribute to it). Lord, please don't give up on me. Only You know my worth.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Day 4: Made to Last Forever

After reading this chapter and listening to David Jeremiah's sermon on the breastplate righteousness, have realized a few things:

1) Receiving Christ is a position I take (that I have righteousness through Christ's blood), but along with this position comes the Christian's responsibility of practice. I need to remember to practice the examples Christ set for us during His time on earth. If I am righteous in Christ in heaven because of what He did for me, then He should be righteous in me (through my actions) here on earth.
2) I should value the unseen more than the seen in terms of spiritual vs. earthly
3) To practice being Christ-like in the flesh (in my own efforts) will guarantee failure, but to focus on learning to love God and building my relationship with Him, I will find more success, yet there will be times of failure.

Lord,
My deepest desire is to have my love for You to grow. Help me to walk close to You. I pray I will take time from my day to read Your word and pray, keeping engaged in day to day conversations with You. Help me to keep my eye on things that are eternal, but do the best that I can doing Your will here on earth.

Day 3: What Drives Your Life?

There are two driving forces in my life, one positive and on negative. The positive force is my family and the people in my life I love so dearly. They help me to be a better person and give me support. I thank God for them as He is the one who placed them in my life. Through them, I am a wife, mother, daughter, sister and friend~although I know I could be better at each of these roles.

The negative force that drives my life is FEAR! I worry about EVERYTHING that threatens my state or family's state of happiness. My main fear is death, which I know is wrong and is completely the antithesis to having faith. I need to remember that as humans, it is natural to have fears, however fear that is not conducive or that is contrived, is NOT from God. I must remember that Satan is the great deceiver, and will use fear to stop me from doing God's will or distract me from my relationship with God.

Lord,
I know that when I fear, I cannot excersize faith. Please help me to trust in You and turn away from my fears. I believe the more I walk with You, the more able I will be to cast my fears. I know death in this life will result in eternal life with You, however in my spiritual immaturity, I have yet to commit it to my heart to not fear this. Please help me to do that. I need to learn to put my faith in You, after all, it is so evident how much You love me by those You have placed in my life, as well as ALL the blessing you have given me and continue to give me each and every day. I also know, because You created me, I am no surprise to You, and I find comfort in that because, even though I'm a mess at times, I am Your mess. And because my weaknesses make me this mess, I am ever so dependent on You~ as You, Lord, see me through and You can use my weaknesses. Thank you Lord!

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Day 2: You Are Not an Accident

I need to accept that my unique traits, whether good or bad, serve some purpose as God created me just the way I am. Whether I like them or not, I must accept them. Those traits that I do not like or struggle with, only God can help me change as He is my creator. I must remember to look to the power of God who can transform me in amazing ways as I journey to walk with Him. However, God works through our weaknesses to demonstrate His strength in our lives.

Lord,
My biggest struggle is to let go of those things over which I have no control. Through this chapter and Your word I realize my life is in Your time. You have a purpose for me, and my days here on Earth are planned by You. Please help me etch this realization into my heart, so that I can let go of my fears and focus on You and the things over which I do have influence in my life.

Day 1: It All Starts With God

Things to remember: I was born by His purpose, for His purpose / I was made by God for God.



I can remind myself today that life is really about living for God (not myself) just by looking around at God's creations: the people in my life and the beauty in nature. These will remind me that God is grand and has a purpose for everything he creates- just like a tree strives to grow and survive- it has a greater purpose of which it is unaware: to give life by producing oxygen or to provide shelter or protection for animals. So as it is for us--We will not know our purpose if we do not seek revelation from God. What we see through our eyes, or understand through our perspective, might be different than God's omnipotent perspective and how all His creations work together in the bigger picture.



Lord,

I pray you will help me discover the purpose You intended for my life, and help me fulfill that purpose. I know that I was made by You and for You because without You, I have an emptiness inside me. It is only through my journey of building a relationship with You will I know my purpose. Please help me on this journey.